IM JOSEPH :P

2009-12-02T22:53:00.001+08:00

GIVE UP OR WAIT ON~~~

IDK..PLEASE GIVE ME A HINT....

THE MOOD NOW IS...

CONFUSE @.@

HAIZ~~

2009-11-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

im trying hard to make u notice me..
im trying..

will u give me a chance??

2009-11-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

idk why..why..i sudden don dare to tok to her ani more...
i scare
i jus..i jus..cant bring myself forward to tok to her...

thank to all my fren that had been cheering me up..
thanks alot

telling me that not to be scare n worry...jus to do..

but..but..i jus cant really bring myself forward to tok to her..

jus wat wrong wit me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god dam suk...I REALLY DON KNOW WAT THE HELL TO DO

2009-11-15T12:09:00.003+08:00

i feel that i so stupid and dumb
to fell in love with her
and waited for her about 1 year
even though that i know that we will not have a start in the beginning

i regret that i confess to her that nite...
ever since that nite..every thing change
if i nv confess to her..everything will be jus fine
and i will be happy in that way cuz
before she know i like her..
we still can chat happy in msn or sms
and can meet out tgt
but now diff
chating been short..msging with jus one word or a few words..
asking her out had been hard too..(cuz she busy)

i really hope i can go back to the past..where every thing happen jus fine..

i really need a listening ear......

2009-10-29T22:05:00.002+08:00

idk idk idk....I REALLY DK WAT TO DO...

i really love her..but i don dare to confess to her the second time

cuz i SCARE

i scare i been reject again

i scare to FEEL THAT PAIN ONCE AGAIN N AGAIN

i don wan that to happen

i really dk...

i really needed someone to talk to......

2009-10-18T22:18:00.002+08:00

time fly fast..next week is her o lvl liao..

hope she can do well in her o lvl :)

finally start to sms her at thursday..

now is not i don dare to tok to her ani more

is i don wan to tok to her

lol

so that she can concentrate on her study ^^

i finally decided that i will wait for her no matter how long or wat happen..

cuz is time round..i found out that i really fall in love wit her

and i been so serious about it

i gg to try my best for it :)

2009-10-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

{{{
how are you?
are you doing fine??
how ur study???
how ur preparation for ur o level??
so long din sms u liao
so long din see u liao le
nowaday every day stay in sch until 9plus ar??
or went out to study wit fren??
}}}

those are thing that i wanted to talk to her about
but
but
but
but some how i lose my courage to talk to her again
idk why
idk idk
something weird happen to me again
i like her
but some how i don tink it will work up
cuz she like someone
i now waiting for her after o
den i start chasing her again
so therefore nowaday i hardly tok to her
cuz i wan her to study and don tink about r/s
so she can do well in her Os
i try to tok to her some time but
i start to lose my courage to talk

haiz i dk wat to do

i like some how wan to make her forget her x..
but i cant do it..cuz it like so bad
and make me feel so bad
..cuz it like make her to forget her x cuz of me
i jus cant do it. .i really cant do it..
I REALLY CANT DO IT

2009-10-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

haiz..

sudden the painfully feeling came back to me..

:(

2009-09-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

try to smile :)

trying to forget if i can :0

hahaha

i now more tan liao

cuz went to sentosa last saturday hehe..

but got sunburn...OUCH!!!!

haha

basketballed today yeah...

play much better liao

i gg to improve my basketball skill no matter wat hehe

alright :)

hope she can score well in her o lvl next month

jiayou :)

so that she can go to the JC that she wan

^^

i still missing you

i tink i will not give up ...i will still wait until i am unable to wait ani more

:)

imy ily

2009-09-23T23:30:00.003+08:00

haix..or haiz...aiya both de same..zzzzzz

dam i fall asleep on the keyboard AGAIN..twice in 2 day liao zzzz...

not enuff slp i tink..i jus feel dam tired this few day....

i din msg her much liao...cuz i don really know how or what to talk to her..zzzzzzzz

i wan to talk to her...i wan to msg her...but jus that..nothing came to mind to chat...

i now somehow...hate to be fall in love..cuz i never success before...

i jus wan to fall in love..with someone that love me too...that hard..

or trying to find someone that i love n make her love me???that hard too..haiz

holiday suck!!!!

cant find job..zzzzz

oversea trip cancel WTF..dam the H1N1 in CHINA..dam CHINA...!!!!!!!!!!

~!@#$%^&*()

DAM DAM DAM

haiz...

been basketballing all day long...and i tink I DON IMPROVE AT ALL...****

INSTEAD I BECOME LOUSY N LOUSY LIAO...WTF

how is it to been in a relationship??

wat does it feel??

i wan to know!!

but the answer for me is i cant find out...

the main problem now is...

i still love you

i still thinking of you

but i cant be wit u

i just wish that now....

u can spend ur day happy every time

do well for ur o level

and get wat you wan...

and get in to the poly or jc that you wanted to go :)

IMY ILY

2009-09-13T00:07:00.001+08:00

every thing had been over already...
my life is suck overall
a right choice had been make let it go is a better choice even though it so painful in the end

i now really don know wat to do..
i din slp last nite
cuz of....
i don feel like to say

DAM

after some stuff happen

morning

dam dam dam

my china trip had been cancel

arrrrrr dam

why all this is happening on me

idk why idk idk idk

my life is jus like that

i dam moodless today

i try to forget her...

but idk why i still thinking of her

planning to use the china trip to forget the feeling for her

but now is like..cant already

i jus cant stop tinking of her

jus because of this

i went out wit some fren

to ps

watched movie n play arcade

jus to lighten up my day abit

haiz i really don know wat to do

2009-08-24T23:52:00.005+08:00

OMG I REALLY DON KNOW..IDK IDK IDK..IDK WAT TO DO
THIS KIND OF FEELING SUK ALL THE WAY..
I NEVER BEEN LIKE THIS B4
IT SO PAINLY
AND I CANT STOP TINKING OF IT
I NV BE SO SERIOUS TO BE IN R/S B4

i start to get close to her each day..
ever since the last post..
i ask out for lunch during last last saturday
she pei-ed me eat lunch..den she went to find her fren to study
that nite is my father birthday...so i had a family dinner at suntec there
after dinner..reached home i ask her where is she??is it okay to go find her to walk her home??
it about 10 pm already..she rply any thing lor..so she waited at mrt station for me
so i from my house walk to the mrt station find her n walk her home that nite..
i feel dam happy
her home is like 3 to 4 blk away from me
i confess to her my 1 year long crush to her..
and as i tot..
she rejected me
she say cuz of o lvl that why cant tink about r/s stuff
i say it okay n i willing to wait till after o
she din say much after that
so i joke ard with her..trying to make her happy with my tear flowing down my cheek
i sms her everyday after that nite
i chat happying everyday
but this few day i know it her prelim week..so we din chat much..but i feel that i annoying her like that

she that 8th girl i confess so far ever since sec 3 till now
and it also the 8th rejection i had..
i nv had a gf b4...
that y idk wat girl really think
idkidkidk
i was confuse
idk that i wan to wait for her anot
for no reason..it like the feeling now hurt so much
i really go serious for her..
i try to change bcuz of her
idk wat to do
the tear jus flowing down non stop
i told myself last year during my birthday..i don wan to tink about ard r/s
cuz i scare that i will cant take it another rejection
but den last year dec
she appear
i try to control myself
control until this year
i try to control myself until her o lvl over but i cant
i start to move 1 step closer to her
now is the scare that if i really waited for until o lvl over..
den the time i tink i will love her even more
but if she reject me again after o lvl
i tink i really cannot take it ani more

so now i dam confuse and sad..idk wat to do
i really like her
i like her
i tink now if i really like her..i jus wan her to be happy
i wan her to do well in her prelim n o lvl

i jus wan her to be happy

2009-08-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

woo my second post hahah...
i will try post every week bah hahaha

i finally boast up my courage and tok to her through msn
it happen all at friday nite
which i start my real first chat wit her haha
feeling dam happy XD
asked for her number n success getting it
yeah!!!:D
chat until
she say her mum asking her to close the com lol

next morning i try to chat wit her but nothing came into my mind haiz
so din really chat wit her
went out to meet kevin at cc den went to find clement and guo jun
had lunch at mac n planning to go acsi
which having lunch i saw her..XDXD
she saw me
n she smile n wave to me
ohhh
she really melt my heart
..
nvm

jus i tink 1 hour ago
i was chatting wit her but she was watching show den i say enjoy watching bah don disturb u l8r den chat
until now still no rply haiz

haiz
idk i got chance to be wit her mah??
haiz

i like her since last year dec holiday which we happen to play bball tgt

haiz

first post in new post - tired

2009-07-19T07:53:00.001+08:00

haha..deleted my old blog and created a new one :P
kinda lame btw lol
kobe is coming to town
and i wan to see him lol
but too bad the ticket is complimentary. haiz :(
tinking of gg for the trial for kobe clinic haha
but it today 2pm to 6pm at Singapore basketball association
age 16 to 20..
wth but no one free to go wit me haha
nvm im tired btw

ytd went to romp! sports carnival 2009
3 on 3 basketball under 21 hahaha
my team..me kevin vemon and yann chwen hahaa
wilson and guo jun went also..dave come along much later..
went there saw rv and fairfield ppl..rv got 3 team. 2 is under 21 n 1 is under 17
fairfield got 2 team also both under 17
i din get much result from the under 17 so nvm :P

under 21

our team manage to get in top 4 WAHAHHAHA..
by after beating rv team (xiao hei)team
win them by 1 point 15 to 14 haha
in semi final
team are getting stronger hahaha
we lose in semi final by 3 point 21 to 18 haiz
played the 3th n 4th placing..
lost by 4 point haiz..
nvm
hahaha
my first real life game btw hahaha
:P
i did my best
it tired n fun
btw din i mention during our first match there..
our team n another team amost fight..
haiz..sore loser team
we trash them 19-2
but l8r let them catch up wit 19 to 12..hiaz
nvm hehe
den went back clementi cc
play 2 match go home
slp ard 8 plus den woke up ard 12 am hahaha
den use com den slp again ard 2am hahah..

haiz..
i so long din see her liao :(
i was shocked n happy that she tok to me that nite....

haiz..